It Hit Home Hard

Yesterday I went out with this guy to have dinner and just have a good friendly time. Things were great initially like two old friends laughing and just enjoying each others company. I am the type of person that likes to talk about everything and try not to hold anything back. We were sharing life stories about what is going on with each other when it comes to living in Atlanta. We are both imports from other states and as I was telling him everything that has been going on with me he had a subtle pause.

There was silence for about 4 seconds and he says to me "we can only be friends, we cannot go any further than that." On one hand I had no intention on dating this guy or having sex with him just essentially being friends. On the other hand to know that dating isn't even an option not because of who I am but for what I am was just insane.

Yes we all face rejection in our lives but because this was a new form of rejection that I haven't before....rejected because of my status. Since it was the first time that it has happened I was kind of frozen I didn't know how to respond. I was going through a whirlwind of emotions, I was hurt, I could sympathize with him at the same time but I was mad at his bigotry.

Today as I look back at the whole situation I am fine with it. A friend of mine was saying "Noble its a regular thing don't take offense to it. Just a part of what we go through" and hes right. Whenever we face something for the first time it is always such a big deal and we blow it out of proportion.